Last Night…

Sometimes, dreams try to talk to you



Last night I saw you on my way,
Talking to someone and walking away,
I saw you were all smiling and happy with your life,
While you made me to think all about my life.
Last night I saw you turned to look at me,
And your helpless eyes spoke to me,
I felt a twitch in my heart as I saw the sea infront of you,
Were you happy for yourself or for someone that you knew?
Last night I saw that you were saying goodbye,
While wind whispered in my ears all the secrets of your eye,
In that cold dark night I saw your tears coming through,
Last night I think I dreamt of you.
-JMJ

A Regret In My Life…

Have you ever had an incident in your life which has affected you a lot later? Something, which is still fresh in your mind even if it had happened a long time ago. A face that you cannot forget.

I have a story to tell you which has been haunting me since several years. I still remember the day when I was going to church with my mother and my little brother. I think I was twelve or thirteen years old. While walking, I saw a middle aged man, walking towards us. From a distance itself I had a feeling of uneasiness. When he came nearer I gave him a glance and I took my mother’s hand to hold in shock.

You must be thinking that he might have done something. Then, you are wrong. In this story, I’m the villainess. My behavior was totally based on his physical feature, his facial disfigurement. It was like he didn’t have a nose or mouth and those organs were all joined together to appear like a big mass on his face. I had never seen anyone like that before. The way I reacted after I saw him was so rude and unkind that he quickly walked past us bowing his head. But before he did that I saw disappointment and sadness on his face.

That night, I couldn’t sleep because I got scared of him. It didn’t occur to me at that time that I’m the one who had hurt him. Only thing that bothered me was his face. It took a few years and a nursing degree course to make me realize what was the cause for his disfigured face. What I did was so wrong even though it was unintentional.

I still remember his face but the feelings are not the same. Regret has taken the place of fear. That was the first and the last time I saw him. I never got the chance to say sorry to him in person.This post is a confession and I would like to take this chance to say, “I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I was so ignorant and unkind that I behaved like that. I’m sorry that I judged you based on your face without knowing you in person. I’m sorry that I hurt your feelings when I looked away because I wanted to avoid you. I’m deeply sorry for what I have done.” So if you read this, I hope that you do, please take it as an apology from my heart.

You Are Strong…


When the whole world stops,
And there is nothing to hope,
You give your smile,
To convince me that all is well,
Oh baby! You are strong.
When my heart starts to bleed,
And it gets hard for me to breathe,
Then you hug me and kiss me to calm my mind,
I see the resilience in your eyes,
Oh baby! You are strong.
When it gets hard to take another step,
All I see are the walls and there is no way to escape,
You take my hand to go for a walk,
And show me a world beyond those walls,
Oh my baby! You are strong.
-JMJ

A Moment

A moment of perfection,
It was when I saw you giving instruction,
To someone who was in need,
I thought you did a good deed.
A moment of love and affection,
In those eyes I saw a beautiful connection,
Where I could see my whole life,
I knew that soul from other life.
A moment of euphoric sensation,
When you took the chance to ask me a question,
It felt like I was floating in the space,
And then I fell flat on my face.
-JMJ

My Little Sunshine….

When my life turns upside down,
When I feel all alone,
When none of the things feel right,
When everything in front of me is an upsetting sight,
I see you running towards me,
To wrap your arms around me,
Then you give me your soothing kiss on my cheeks,
Did I ever tell you this?
That you are my little sunshine,
You are my little sunshine...
-JMJ

Forever…..

Saw pure love in their eyes,
When they were gazing each other's eyes,
A half a century of life together,
Still they love to have moments together.
Finding a person to love is a blessing,
But to be loved in the same way needs more blessings,
Their love and care for each other made my heart warm,
When I saw him tucking her to keep her body warm.
When they said forever in their vows,
They meant each and every word of their vows,
To be there for each other is not overrated,
Forever is not at all overrated.
-JMJ

Taken For Granted..

Like a candle she burns for others,
But gets blamed for the death  of a firefly who tests her patience.

Like an ocean she gives lives to others,
But gets cursed for all the drownings who underestimated her and forgot the strength.

Like a raindrop she quenches the thirst of others,
But is defamed for the destructions caused due to the negligence of yours.

How long will you take her for granted?

-JMJ

Cancer

When I first found you,
I thought it's good to have you,
You made me believe that you helped me grow,
And that you are the reason that I glow.
But then as years passed by,
You made your way to each and every cells of mine,
Killing all the normalcy,
There were times that I couldn't even clearly see.
Many years passed and you became a part of me,
Biting my lips I tolerated all the pain you caused to me.
But now, as your toxin is spreading to my brain and affecting the people around me,
It's time to do a surgical incision and do an ectomy.

-JMJ