As Years Pass By

As years pass by,
I wonder if would ever see anyone to whom I said goodbye,
All my friends from my childhood,
And the people who lived in my neighborhood.


The teachers who taught me the right from wrong,
My first crush with whom I never got along,
The people who encouraged me to dance and paint,
The grandma next door who told the story of a saint.


As years pass by,
I wonder to how many people I have said goodbye,
The people who once I thought that I could not live without,
Now, sometimes I think what was that about?


As years pass by,
I wonder how fast the time flies by,
If I could ever walk back my life,
I would never miss a chance to say a proper goodbye even though we had a strife.
-JMJ

I’m here, I’m right here, I’m Bud.


I'm here, I'm right here,
Waiting for my time to blossom.
Will the sun caress me with it's light?
Or will the clouds sprinkle love on me with it's droplets?

I'm here, I'm right here,
Waiting to open myself to the world.
Will they accept my beauty as natural as it is?
Or will they compare me to the flower next to me?

I'm here, I'm right here,
Waiting to give my smell to the world.
Will they love me as I'm, no matter from where I belong?
Or will they try to pluck me and put me somewhere, thus losing my home?

I'm here, I'm right here,
Waiting to see the world.
Can I give happiness and hope to the world the way I'm?
Or should I be worried about my future?
-JMJ

The Heartbreak


You will be that pain in my heart that never gets old,
As your lies were taking chances one by one to unfold,
A scar in my heart that will always be new,
While you are partying with someone I knew.
Time heals everything they say,
Hoping that it won't be a lifetime and that's what I pray,
How could one can understand another's soul so deeply,
Yet can't see their betrayals
and be blind completely?
-JMJ

I wrote this poem while I was watching Grace and Frankie. It was actually Frankie who inspired me as she loved Sol and knew each and every minute details about him but didn’t realize that he was cheating on her for about two decades. Irony is that they were like soulmates.

A Regret In My Life…

Have you ever had an incident in your life which has affected you a lot later? Something, which is still fresh in your mind even if it had happened a long time ago. A face that you cannot forget.

I have a story to tell you which has been haunting me since several years. I still remember the day when I was going to church with my mother and my little brother. I think I was twelve or thirteen years old. While walking, I saw a middle aged man, walking towards us. From a distance itself I had a feeling of uneasiness. When he came nearer I gave him a glance and I took my mother’s hand to hold in shock.

You must be thinking that he might have done something. Then, you are wrong. In this story, I’m the villainess. My behavior was totally based on his physical feature, his facial disfigurement. It was like he didn’t have a nose or mouth and those organs were all joined together to appear like a big mass on his face. I had never seen anyone like that before. The way I reacted after I saw him was so rude and unkind that he quickly walked past us bowing his head. But before he did that I saw disappointment and sadness on his face.

That night, I couldn’t sleep because I got scared of him. It didn’t occur to me at that time that I’m the one who had hurt him. Only thing that bothered me was his face. It took a few years and a nursing degree course to make me realize what was the cause for his disfigured face. What I did was so wrong even though it was unintentional.

I still remember his face but the feelings are not the same. Regret has taken the place of fear. That was the first and the last time I saw him. I never got the chance to say sorry to him in person.This post is a confession and I would like to take this chance to say, “I’m sorry. I’m sorry that I was so ignorant and unkind that I behaved like that. I’m sorry that I judged you based on your face without knowing you in person. I’m sorry that I hurt your feelings when I looked away because I wanted to avoid you. I’m deeply sorry for what I have done.” So if you read this, I hope that you do, please take it as an apology from my heart.

Is There A Way?

Is there a way to find out,
What is inside your heart?
Is it the feeling of happiness of loving someone?
Or a feeling of pride of owning someone?
Is there a way to find out,
What your intentions are?
Is it to bring out the best in someone?
Or to tarnish by spilling out the the secrets of your trusted ones?
Is there a way to find out,
Who you really are?
Is that the big smile on your face is honest?
Or just a lie to hide your poisonous mind which is dishonest?
Is there a way to find out,
While I'm standing on this crossroad,
To run towards you with all the love in my heart,
Or to run away as fast I can with my life in my hand?
-JMJ

Clouds….

“If you use your imagination, you can see lots of things in the cloud formations.”

Charles M. Schulz

Clouds have always been an attraction to my eyes. As a child, I used to look up the sky and tried to identify the shapes that the clouds form. To be honest, I still do it. You may think it’s silly but I can’t help it . Sheep, cows, fish, Jesus and fairies are just few examples that I have found. All the above images are taken on my phone on different days and times. Oh yes! I love to collect those pictures too.

Hope you will enjoy the pics and the cloud idioms, quotes and phrases.

Every dark cloud has a silver lining….
Under a cloud ….
On cloud nine….
In the clouds….
Head in the clouds….
Gathering clouds….
“Try to be a rainbow in someone’s cloud.”
― Maya Angelou

“Clouds come floating into my life, no longer to carry rain or usher storm, but to add color to my sunset sky.”

Rabindranath Tagore

Clouds in the sky very much resembles the thoughts in our minds! Both changes perpetually from one second to another!”

Mehmet Murat ildan

“The air up there in the clouds is very pure and fine, bracing and delicious. And why shouldn’t it be?- it is the same the angels breathe.”

Mark Twain

“Don’t forget: beautiful sunsets need cloudy skies.”

Paulo Coelho

Please leave your comments on the topic as I would really love to read them.

Perfect Storm

Alone in a deep forest,
Thinking about whether to protest,
Against all discriminations and bias,
Or to hide away and be pious.
She saw innocents being crucified,
Blamed and buried for something they had never tried,
Powerful was taking advantage and pulling the strings,
And then they claimed about their sufferings!
The reality was reversed as people closed their eyes,
The perpetrators said they were victimized,
Now, how can she just be quiet?
The perfect storm was in formation and she said to them, try it.
-JMJ

Spirit

You will find the greatest human spirits,
In the hell's deepest pits,
Where people refuse to surrender to what happened to them,
And don't allow to be defined by the people around them.

There is an unrelenting human spirit in each one of us,
That helps us to fight any evil forces,
An undefeatable mind and a body in motion,
With courage, resilience, love and compassion.

-JMJ

Rain

Heaven has opened its door,
Bringing tranquility to our soul,
Soothing the Earth's burned skin,
Making the thirsty birds to sing.
Trees are whispering their joy in my ears,
Swaying their body like dancers,
Sky have their own drum beats to show off,
And I'm wondered by the lights they are bringing out.
As I sit inside my house watching the downpour,
Every drop is a grace that I was hoping for.

-JMJ